It’s that day when I got another level up in life. I’m turning a year older again today. So many things have changed in a course of a year. I read what I wrote on my birthday last year and I almost choked with laughter at how ridiculous everything sounds.
Last year I was content. Well, not anymore.
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As I found myself through the unexpected journey of love, it seems like somewhat I have lost myself too. It confuses the fuck out of me. It is definitely something that I am not used to. I am so used to be full of confidence and often not give a fuck about anything, especially things that are related to the matter of the heart.
Funny isn’t it how a person can change all that?
The reason why I feel so lost is for the simple fact that I can’t seem to picture my future without that person in it.
Cliché as fuck but fuck it it’s the fucking truth.
So today I am forced to rethink shit through. I am not getting any younger. Can I afford to be oblivious to the rules of the world? Can I afford to waste any more time pinning my hope for someone that may never reciprocate my feelings? Should I continue living so recklessly, devoid of any attachments?
Well, if that makes me happy, why the hell not? :)
I am just making sure that I won’t live a life with regrets burdening my conscience. Who knows, a year from now I might be laughing my ass reading this shit again.
They say 32 is the perfect age for wisdom. You have amassed plenty of life experience but not to the point that you crap in your pants.
Did you also know that 32 is
a. a code word for Cock Block
b. a meeting place for gay people
c. a sexual position where the penis becomes hard in preparation for homosexual sex
LOL I bet most people don’t know that.
|om nom nom can I have you as birthday present? =3|
Happy birthday, me :)