Well, guess what? Mayan fucked up their calculation. We are still breathing and the world hasn't ended.
That was bad news for few people I know but for the rest of us, life goes on because at the end of the day, it really does goes on no matter how fucked up the day has been. The outcome depends on either you don't give a fuck, or give it one fuck too many. Mine is almost always the former.
But yes, lets talk about 2012. How did it goes? Has it been kind to you? Did you manage to achieve everything that you set out to do when you make that New Year resolutions?
Having said that, the first half of my 2012 went by like a blur. I can't remember most of the details except that I completed my certificate at Academy of Pastry Arts Malaysia earlier than expected (in February instead of April), I opened Scrumbtious outlet in March, went to South Korea in April, quit my job, is diagnosed with some shitty cancerous shit, and then... what? LOL
I quit my good paying job in order to re-joined JOHO in June. If it wasn't for the passion and my love for them boys, I wouldn't have done it. This decision wasn't approved by many for obvious reason but meh, fuck it. There will come a time though when I will decide when I have had enough. Even more so now that the Shell deal is on and when you have to deal with a prick day in and day out.
It is also because of JOHO that I ended up having no time for animu or writings nowadays. It's a bit sad but I'm not complaining for I gained so much more in real life. I fell hard for a crush of mine in June, a month before my scheduled wedding hence I broke off the engagement. Unknowingly he has saved me from making the biggest mistake of my life so to him I'll be eternally grateful.
The best part of 2012, apart of finding myself through love - unrequited it may be, was all the getaway trips I went to. It's the company that matters to be honest so thanks guys for joining me on my madness. I used to do a solo trip before but I am not sure if I can do that anymore nowadays without feeling too lonely. This is why I have a feeling that 2013 will be awful, whats with Jebat is no longer here. FFFFF-
The people I am close with said I have changed. Well, I guess I did but not so much that you won't recognize me. Then again, I have not a clue what changes did they see because as far as I'm concern, the changes are subtle and only those involved knew what. Having said that, I doubt the person involved even know about it because that person doesn't know me that well to begin with. I allowed that person to see the side of me that nobody, not even my jerks or Jebat, got a chance to see. As for the rest of them persons, I let them made their own assumptions and thus they all think I'm beyond saving. Meh, it's not like I give a damn about their opinions anyway.
So overall, year 2012 has indeed been kinder to me. I have achieved what I set out to achieve but most importantly, I unexpectedly found love which is easily the highlight of the year for me.
I wish I could say that I want the same shit for 2013. I can't though. The thought of a new year is already draining me. For whatever reason I am not looking forward to anything. I have no new dreams, nor wishes. It sort of left me hollowed. So at the moment I failed to come up with any resolutions, or rather I don't really give a fuck anymore.
All I know is this, I will live a life of no regrets. I said what I needed to say and will continue doing what I want to do. Even if the outcome is unfavorable, at least I took a chance rather than wondering of the what-if.
So 2013, come at me bro.
I'm ending this post with this quote: "look for love but do not trust hope"