It has been a while I got this excited for an anime. In fact, I can't remember the last anime that got me all worked out like this. Needless to say, I think Aku no Hana is a very awesome anime. I definitely recommended it to everyone.
It’s that day when I got another level up in life. I’m turning a year older again today. So many things have changed in a course of a year. I read what I wrote on my birthday last year and I almost choked with laughter at how ridiculous everything sounds.
So overall, year 2012 has indeed been kinder to me. I have achieved what I set out to achieve but most importantly, I unexpectedly found love which is easily the highlight of the year for me.
I need an outlet to express how I feel nowadays. To be honest, things are going too good for me at the moment to the point that I am sort of living in fear for I do not want these extremely good feelings, and the love I have for him to end. If all these are gone tomorrow, there is a big probability that I might lose sanity.
Welp, looks like we are having this conversation again after so many years. Well 2 years and 3 months to be exact. The last time I wrote about my crush, I was in a different state of mind where I know it can be nothing more than just that, a crush.
Dude, I do feel pain. I am just better at hiding it than most people. Called me guarded or whatever. It just how I operated.
Dude, I fucking bleed. I am just better at bandaging it up and act as if it will not leave a scar. It fucking will. I just don't want you to be worried.
Dude, I do get mad. It just that I know how fucking ugly I can be if I do. This fucking journal is a proof for that. So I'm sorry.
Dude, I do have a heart. It just that I keep it in a glass tank so when it does break, I will not miss any of the pieces so that I can be whole again.
Dude, I do crave happiness. I am human. If I am to be blamed for that, screw you. Oh wait, you already did.
Dude, bottom line is, I.FUCKING.CARE.
